I had a Miscarriage at 10 weeks

Hello. I created this blog because I found out miscarriages are more common than I thought and knowing this might have helped me deal with the situation better. Alos, because there ae many women who go through this and need to know they are not alone!!!

I was 10 weeks pregnant when the ultrasound revealed the embryo was only 6.5 weeks. I had an ultrasound at 8 weeks and it showed the embryo at 6 weeks. Therefore, it grew only 4 days in the course of two weeks. They couldn't find a heartbeat and diagnosed me with fetal demise. I took a supository to induce labor and had a miscarriage. I still have not gotten my period. The doctor said to wait two cycles before trying again.

I have yet to ask myself "Why?" I think things happen for a reason and if this was not meant for me right now, I am sure there is a reason for it. I am turning 29 in two weeks so I am not too concerned abot my age.

Most of all I am surprised and a bit uneasy with myself. I have been experiencing thoughts I have never had before. First of all, I have never been the kind of woman that as wanted children (maybe because I am a teacher! and work with kids all day!). And now I am wanting to have a baby, but not because the baby bug bit me. I think I want to prove to people that I can have a baby (which is not a good reason to have a kid). Second of all, I now get sad when I see people with kids or pregnant. I feel bad that they remind me of what I don't have. It's not that I am jealous of them; more like they are showing me what I couldn't do. Lastly, I can't stop thinking and dreaming of babies. My friends are having babies in my dreams, etc. I feel this experience has affected me more than I thought, and I need to talk about it.

I should have said that this has been an intense 2007 year. My dad passed away in January, I got married in June, got pregnant in August, and miscarried in November. All this while finishing my doctorate and freelancing as a theatre teacher!!! Intense!

So any comments related to this are welcome. I am looking for some feedback and maybe a light at the end of the tunnel...