December Blues

Here I am again with my recurring December blues. For various reasons I always get really sad and really happy during December. My husband says I am just crazy in a loving and joking way, but either way, I still feel this way. One of the reasons this happens is because December reminds me of where I am in my life and I think about where I want to be next year. If I have not accomplished those goals, I get depressed. Second reason, my birthday is on Dec. 30th. I wait all year for my birthday and it never seems to make me happy when it is here; I have too many expectations for this day that never become a reality. I need to stop doing this. Third reason, I feel unproductive compared to the rest of the year when I am always doing something. I feel like a bum.
This year, specifically, has been one full of ups and downs. My father passed away, I got married, I haven't finished my degree, I got pregnant, I had a miscarriage, love Christmas, and have poopy birthday expectations. I am ready for 2007 to end. Fresh 2008, a new start... I am here again with my December blues... I have to remember this ext year...